It’s a Girl! #genderreveal

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Yesterday we found out we were having another girl!

The ultrasound tech found the baby’s bottom right away and we looked and I think both my MIL and I saw … nothing. I remember thinking “if something was there we would see it right?” And the tech said, “Well… I’m not completely positive, buuuuutttt I think it’s a girl….” and throughout the ultrasound (which was so wonderful by the way, she was so kind) she kept checking. And at the end, she said, “okay! I think it’s time we put it in writing. It’s a girl!” Sean and I were smiling from ear to ear, so excited… and yet in disbelief. What?! Three girls?! We are beyond happy. Now just to figure out a name. (More on that later)

Vlog: Week 2

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So this week was pretty slow. Not much happened, other than the initial VA appointment. I go over how the VA system works with me and my pregnancy and how we are also looking at new cars. I also mention how we are looking at a new vehicle to hold our soon to be family of 5.

Is there any questions you have or things you think we should talk about?

Pregnant, Again!

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Yay! We are so excited! It was unexpected! (Maybe just for me though since Sean claims that he knew.)

I have PCOS which is why we had struggled for over a year to get pregnant with little Bird. So to find out that we are pregnant again and that Birdie and this new one will be almost exactly 3 years apart is just nutso to me! But we are so thrilled.

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Birdie Mae’s Birth Story

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If you follow me on Instagram, you will know that I was waiting for little Birdie for so long. I had it in my mind that she was gonna be born early, even though Bailey was overdue and had to be induced.


The morning before she was born, October 6th,  I had an appointment around 12.

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They had me take a non stress test and everything was normal. They checked me and said that there was very little changes. My doctor came in and said, “I don’t want you to be pregnant any longer. Can you come to the hospital today at 4pm?” I was almost exactly a week overdue and ready to have this little bird.

My mom was supposed to be coming in Wednesday night, and getting there just in time for me to induce on Thursday, which was the plan in our minds. But when the doctor gave me the go ahead to come in that day, I jumped at the chance! I was excited that he wasn’t making me wait until Thursday! I tried to make it sound like I didn’t have a choice because I really was excited about the whole thing.

So when I got out of my appointment at 1:30, I called Sean and my mom and texted my friends to let them know I was supposed to be at the hospital at 4pm. I decided to run to the school first to let Bailey know that I would not be picking her up from school and that I was going to go have the baby at the hospital and she would be spending the night at her friend, Charlie’s, house.

Then I ran home. My plan for the next day, Wednesday, was to clean the house before my mom got there. My plan was for her to stay at our house instead of hers so that she could watch Bailey in the comfort of her own home. So I was going to need to change my bed sheets and wash them, and clean the whole house. We have three pets and if you don’t sweep every day (which I wasn’t) it becomes a dusty, hairy mess.

So my list of things to do was :
1-Stop at the school and see Bailey.
2-Pack Baileys overnight bag for Charlies including her MMA stuff for practice that night.
3- change the sheets on my bed.
4-clean the downstairs
6-eat something

I ended up getting everything done except cleaning. The thing I was most thankful for was the shower. I remember feeling grimy last time and this time I felt beautiful and clean the entire labor. So next time I will remember to shower as soon as I know I’m going to the hospital.

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One other thing was that I didn’t know how much to eat, so I made one grilled cheese sandwich. The problem with this was I had only had a small bowl of cereal at 9am and then this lunch was at 2pm. The next time I was able to eat was at 9pm (luckily they let me eat before bed.) So i was starving. I know I was hungry because Sean said the food was disgusting, while I thought it was so good and even ate half of his meal too!


Finally, I was on my way to the hospital, and Sean was too. He had been in the city that day and left as soon as I told him I was going to the hospital that night.

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He made it a little after I did and we settled into the hospital room. It wasn’t that bad, I liked it. Sean hates hospitals and had to sleep in a fairly uncomfortable chair.


I changed into my gown and sat on the bed and waited. My doctor finally came in at 7pm. My doctor wanted to try the foley balloon. It was traumatic. I don’t remember where Sean was but he was gone… I think to check on Bailey… or maybe to let the dog out. And the doctor said my cervis was too high? or something. And I almost passed out while he was trying to put it in. So he decided to change his mind and use cytotec. They did one dose at 7pm and another at 11pm. They wanted me to be at least 4cm by 8am so that they could pop my water. Overnight I started feeling some contractions and at 4am when they started me on pitocin, I could tell that I was starting to contract on my own. Sean left around 5 or 6am to check on Duke and let her outside and then walked with Bailey to school.

At this point, they decided to turn down the pitocin because I was having quite a bit of pain and started whining during contractions. They said that it gets turned up in counts of 2. I was only at a 4 when they turned me down to a 2 and I was still contracting. At 7am they had turn over and I got a new nurse. She asked how my contractions were and what number I was at. I didn’t want to seem like a wimp and i was imagining that pain could be so much worse than what I was dealing with.. so i said maybe a 3 or a 4. I mean it hurt but I wasn’t dying! But at some point I knew I was probably not going to be able to go natural the way I wanted to. Especially when everyone around me kept saying how it wasn’t a bit deal and I didn’t need to be brave.  Sean was gone… and I felt kind of alone and a bit scared. So I asked for some pain reliever in my IV. I don’t remember what kind it was, but they put some in and I remember I didn’t whimper anymore during the contractions, but it totally messed with me. I felt high and I could think straight.

My sister in law called me at one point to wish me luck, and I couldn’t even talk to her. I was in a ball curled up on the bed listening to my music on headphones trying to distract myself from the contractions. And finally, I decided, whatever. I was just going to get the epidural anyway.

Sean came back at some point and they checked me and I was at 5 cm and the doctor came in and popped my water. Then they gave me my epidural. Last time with Bailey I couldn’t’ feel anything. This time, I could feel everything but without the pain. It was a weird/cool experience. I think this was around 830 or 9 am.

They came in a couple more times to check me. The next time I was at 7/8cm and then around 1015 they checked me again and I was at 10 cm. They said It was time to start pushing. The weird part was that the contractions weren’t coming very fast. So they had me wait between contractions and it felt like Iw as waiting for like a full minute between contractions. I would push three times per contraction and then I had to wait… and wait… and wait. The doctor was stretching me between contractions.

At one point, I was like “Can I just push?” and the doctor was like “Uh.. If you want…?” And I did want. He told me to slow down at one point as well because she had the cord around her neck. But at 10:53am she came out.

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She had the blood vessels burst in her eyes… which was weird. They said it was from me pushing too hard to fast.


Sean cried. He never cries. He is not a crying person. I can remember every time in our marriage he has cried.

  1. When he left for deployment the first time of our relationship.
  2. When we got married.
  3. When Bailey was born.
  4. When Birdie Mae was born


It was beautiful. I love seeing how he loves his girls.


She had no problem latching on, although her latch was a bit painful and still is sometimes. She goes through days where it doesn’t hurt and then other times it does… I find that if my breasts are completely full, it hurts less than when they are more or less empty.


She was born on October 7th at 10:53 am. My mom arrived about an hour later. Sean spent the day with me and the night with Bailey at home. He came back after bringing Bailey to school. We had some visitors come by the room and then we went home on the 8th. I was ready at that point to go home. I think we got home around 4 or 5pm. My mom picked up Chinese food for us that night.

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My mom kept saying how Birdie looked like a Schirle baby but we think she looks like Bailey who my mom said looked like a McNamara baby.

Labor Playlist

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Spotify Labor Playlist
So, I’ve never made a Labor Playlist before… So basically what I did was I made a playlist with all the songs that I love or that make me happy or that I like to sing to… I figure anything to keep me distracted and keep me happy would be good.

The problem, is that as I’m adding songs, they switch genres and decades, and really periods of my life. So Listening to it on shuffle is a little weird, but for me, when I listen to it in order, it makes sense in my mind! haha

Also, Come Sail Away ALWAYS reminds me of the episode of South Park when Cartman has to sing the whole song anytime someone starts singing it… makes me laugh every time:

Anyway, What would you put on YOUR Labor Playlist?

32 Weeks // Thoughts About Baby

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It’s been harder to fall asleep lately. And I’ve been thinking of this little girl.

I’ve been thinking is she going to be like Bailey, or totally different?  Will she be a blonde haired blue eyed girl, or look like Sean did growing up?

I’m trying to peg her down before she’s born. I’ve been imagining what she’s like. With each kick I wonder, is she the same or different than Bailey was? It’s been 5 years. I can’t really remember a whole lot from her pregnancy. I remember Bailey hiccuping a whole lot and I haven’t felt any from this little girl. I’ve been trying to figure out if she’ll be calm or have a lot of energy.

It’s so weird for me to think about this second child being different than the first. Am I not just going to be given the same replica of a baby as I was the first one?

I’m not worried about loving this one as much. I know how much Bailey has changed our lives and how much I love her so I know I’ll feel the same about this one. That’s not something that I’ve worried about.

We are 32 weeks pregnant and we only have 8 weeks, 2 months left until this little girl is in our arms… or maybe less! What if she’s born early! I’m praying she is born a little early. I’d like to be surprised this time around. Last time I had to be induced. So it would be cool to go through all the natural stages of labor this time. 🙂

IDK. that’s all.

27 Weeks & an Ultrasound with an Update on my Placenta Previa

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We had an ultrasound today to check on my placenta previa. First thing she checked and she said that my placenta has completely moved away from my cervix (4 cm to be exact). So that’s awesome. No c-section for me. Then I made her make sure it was a girl, which she said, “Still a girl!” which I thought was good because I had made that quilt which had pink and I had already bought a few girl things.


Weight: 2lbs 6oz
Heart rate: 138 bpm
Position: Breech
Sex: Girl

I got Bailey to take photos this week of me and she did a pretty good job! I was pretty proud of her. But today when we went to the ultrasound she was not having it. She said she didn’t care that we saw the baby today. I’m sure this is normal and she HAS gone to three previous ultrasounds so this isn’t all that exciting for her I’m sure by this point.

Other than that, everything is pretty much the same as last week besides we have made some huge strides towards finishing the nursery. I can’t wait to get the crib done. Sean is planning on building it and I’m really looking forward to it! 🙂

It’s a Girl!

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Well, the day has come! It’s Thursday! It’s May 7th! And we had our half way ultrasound!

First off, we thought it was at 1230, but it was at 1200 so they had to hurry up to get it done before their 1245 peed herself! So it was a little bit rushed, but our Ultrasound Tech was so amazingly kind and so good at her job.

She asked if we knew what the gender was and if we wanted to know (YES! OF COURSE WE DID!) and so she looked right away. Baby was transverse along my belly and she was moving around and had her ankles crossed, but we could see pretty clearly that it was a girl! Nothing between the legs… and the rest of it basically went well, except she was rushing and kept getting frustrated and saying she was being a difficult little booger. haha… I’m sure this is just a small indicator of this child’s stubbornness.

As soon as she said it was a girl and I saw there wasn’t anything between her legs, I was like “Well, maybe it’s just the wrong angle… maybe she doesn’t know what she’s talking about.” But then I remembered how my nurse said she’s one of the best around and she’s been doing it forever. And she said, “it’s DEFINITELY a girl!” It’s just blowing my mind. Everyone thought she would be a boy!

But this just goes to show, every pregnancy is different. With Bailey, I was deathly ill and this time I wasn’t  at all! So, I suppose sickness isn’t an indicator of gender… same with cravings, and the like. Nothing about this pregnancy was like the last, but it’s another girl!

And the minute I started thinking about the baby being a girl, I started thinking about how amazing it was holding a baby girl and cuddling her. I was so excited for Bailey and we are so excited for this little one too.

Changing Seasons: It is a Good Struggle to Have

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So. You all know I’m pregnant. But there are even MORE changes.

As you may or may not know, my mom and dad have been watching Bailey 12 hours a day, 5 days a week, for the last almost 2 years. My parent’s are also moving. Up WAY WAY north in Minnesota. Practically to the boundary waters. 8 hours away. It’s going to be good. Sean and I both keep saying through this, “this is a good struggle to have.” Here is why, my parent’s moving is a good struggle to have:

This will be an opportunity for Sean and I to grow closer together and closer to God. And rely on ourselves and our marriage for everything instead of my parents.

So because they are leaving and also that I’m pregnant, we have really been lifting it up to God what to do. I am away from home 12 hours a day because of my work being in Chicago and there is anywhere between an hour and a hour and a half commute. So we wake up at 600 leave by 630 and pick Bailey up somewhere between 6pm and 630. So right around 12 hours. With this new little one, I didn’t want to be away from him/her for that long, even if my parents were able to help us out. And now being that they are leaving, it is an even worse option. To put our child in the hands of a stranger or at least not family for 12 hours a day just isn’t an option we are comfortable with. For months we were freaking out. How would this be possible? How would we be able to afford our house? Would we need to sell it? How would we even do that considering we haven’t paid off hardly any of our mortgage. (Technically it’s all interest anyway.)

I redid our finances and started cutting out the non-necessities (Spotify, Hulu, little things like that…)  And it turns out I can be a stay at home mom. I mean… barely. But we could do it. We won’t have extra money to work on projects around the house or be able to buy the latest iPhones (as is our custom). We will be solely relying on God for everything that is extra. However, my babies will be raised by their mom. And you have NO idea what that means to me.

Since I was 16, I knew I wanted to be a stay at home mom. When I got out of the Navy I tried telling Sean that I didn’t want to go to school again because I was just going to be a stay at home mom and Sean said that No. I WAS going back to school because our kids needed a good educated role model. SO I went to school. I’m glad I did. It was fun and I learned a lot. But I have always wondered when the time would come when I could do what I really wanted to do, and that is to stay at home and take care of my family and my babies and our home. I love cooking and I want to do that more. I don’t really like cleaning, but I do like a clean home and our home is rarely clean because of our schedules. We get home and have no energy to clean.

When we first decided that this was going to happen, Sean and I were very stressed. I felt Sean wasn’t be supportive or saying any of the right things which would be “This is hard, but we will figure it out.” or “God will help us through this.” It was more like “Well, we kind of have to do this don’t we.” and “we don’t have another option!” I think we were both really scared. We were scared of having no extra money, no safe wiggle room every month. We were/are living a pretty cushy life right now. And the reality that in a few months that could all be gone and to being very frugal and careful with our money is scary. But like I said before, It’s a good struggle to have. We will learn how to be smart with our money and learn to rely on God and asking for everything we need and trusting that he will help us along the way. I don’t know that we’ve ever had to do that for real before.

So, This summer, the summer I turn 30 (!!) my dreams come true. I get to be a stay at home mother. I get to spend my summer with my only child until she goes into Kindergarten and we add another beautiful babe to our family.

It is an intense feeling going from a two income house and feeling the pressure to help provide for your family, to relying solely on your husband and not wanting to burden him with this, and yet being so excited. I don’t want to rub it in his face the elation I feel about this summer and the opportunities that are coming my way. I have already written out a schedule for this summer and what the plans are, which I hope to touch on later.

If you have gone through this, I would love to hear your story and where you got your support and inspiration from.

The Nameberry Guide to Off-the-Grid Baby Names

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Sean and I have been talking about baby names since before we got married. We have thought up some crazy names including “Ice” as a middle name. Thankfully we are shying away from the crazy and more drawn toward the unique but classic sounding. This book, however, is really great for finding names that are good cute names but not too weird. Granted some of them, in my opinion were really weird. I would give you some suggestions but I don’t like offending people by telling everyone which names I don’t like, incase they like them. And I also don’t want to say which names I DO like incase I decide to name my child that name too! haha… Get the books yourself!


So on Sunday, I spent a good while just reading names out loud from the book. I read it out loud and Bailey listened and told me which names she liked, which I highlighted in pink, the ones I liked I highlighted in yellow, and Sean’s were in blue. The whole book is practically pink. She liked them all. Even the crazy ones or the normal ones that were spelled uniquely.

We actually had a pretty good Sunday reading through the book.
What is your favorite baby naming book? Or if you use a site, which site do you use?